Dream busters- I need you. interperate?

Yesterday I bought a small cactus with a red spike head for my dorm room. His name is ALEXANDER The GREAT and he will be the first of many plants to be introduced to the dorm room as well as two Baita's (s/P) who will be called Candyland and MR. FLippy. Yesterday I saw the movie ISland... pretty much not worth your seven dolalrs unless u like sci-fi, Sean Bean and not one but two Ewan MCgregors in the same place at the same time one with scottish accent and one with little innocent smile who has no idea what sex is... (until later) which definately counts me in.
I also bought college supplies. THATS DANGEROUS THIS WHO BUYING COLLEGE THINGS THING. there's sooooooooo much you can get thats waaay too easy to convince yourslef u need.

Okay... last night I had a kind of disturbing dream that i know reflects a lot on my feelings about this relationship I have with Graham. (i know you're all so sick of that boy but still) It started out with me about mid-way through this year or the next year of college and I've been seeing this other guy who i really like and its starting to get pretty not like just messing around. Then graham shows up on my doorstep surprisingly for something and I'm shocked out of my mind. he's staying with his grandpa and I don't know what to tell him or anything but theres some kind of event going on inside this place so I take him to hang out with some of my guy friends. the thing is that the other guy I'm seeing is there too and it feels so weird to see Graham that I end up oging home witht eh other guy and kind of ignoring him. I guess I come back later and graham asks me about the other guy and I'm like trying to make myself say somethign but I can't so I admitt to him that I think I'm in love with them both and I still think about him. Graham nodds looking really serious and how I just can't take it when he looks seriosu and sad like that and then says. "Oh I see how it is. Okay. I guess we're over then aren't we. He's closer to you so he wins." And he turns around and I feel like I'm dying and I beg him not to leave and he starts to go so I get clingy and tell him that I'll leave the other guy but he please can't leave me because i odn't know if I can go on like this without him."
He's still turned away so when he starts making this sound like he's laughing I feel horrible but then when he turns around I see he's actually crying. Now I've never seen graham cry and no one else i know has, (he's very russian witht eh not showing those emotions thing) and so we're sobbing and holding each other and knowing neither of us can leave. Then it skips ahead like a couple yeras and we're like haivng a wedding rehearsal but i keep insisting that we're not getting married for two more years anyway. And my parents keep trying to control it so i tell them to bug off and i'm wearing this white off-shoulder sleek dress that is how Kirsten said her wedding dress was going to be and my hairs up in this fake looking prom thing and it doesn't feel right. the only thing thats rihgt about teh whole thing is graham and he doesn't talk a lot he's just kind of older and beautiful and I'm practing the whoel walk down the isle thing and he's at the end of it in a really dark blue suit with a dark red tie and his hands clasped in front of him watching me and the freckels on his nose really stand out and its cute and I'm running to him like I think he'll save me from getting maried?

please help me figure out what this means.